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We have all been there. You head to the doctor and the first thing they do: weigh you. It’s pretty dreadful for most. It is terrifying for me. It can also lead to worse care for anyone who is overweight. Before I get into the data on how often fat people are failed by the …. Read More
Have you ever looked at pictures after a fun night out and think, “wow, I look terrible…” or “I love this picture!” What was it that made you love or hate that picture? In my case, it was always if I looked thin enough in the pic. Never about how much fun it looked like …. Read More
Tomorrow I leave for Mexico to celebrate my 50th birthday my gal pals. I am so darn excited I can barely stand it! I am pretty much packed and ready to go. Mexico is doing great with their COVID numbers and right now is safer than here. Yahoo! Of course there will be masks and …. Read More
Today I had a lovely brunch with one of my favorite friends. We split pound cake French toast (it wasn’t as good as I thought it would be) and avocado toast with buratta on it (this was delicious!). I am not here to tell you about the brunch, but rather to tell you how easy …. Read More
When I talk about binge eating disorder to people, they often say, “I get it I totally do that too.” When I dig a little deeper they are really talking about emotional eating. There is a big difference. And, since this is a blog about my ED I probably should post a boring entry that …. Read More
I am willing to bet that most people have called someone fat as an insult. It’s easy. You are in traffic and someone cuts you off: “Stupid, fat fuck!” Side note: what does fat fuck mean any way? Someone at work is always giving you problems: “Dumb, fat bitch!” Your feelings get hurt so you …. Read More
One of the things that I lived with for a very long time were food “rules.” These were not uncommon to most Weight Watcher members. I surrounded myself mostly with WW members so we never really saw how odd they were. Some of my rules were: TRIGGER ALERT FOR THOSE WHO ARE IN ED RECOVERY …. Read More
I don’t like exercise. I don’t think a ton of people do. I do like to move. I like team sports. I like stretching. I like strolls. OMG! folks— those are exercising! I used to think that unless I was on an elliptical for at least an hour, it wasn’t enough or worth it. So …. Read More
When I was a kid a lot of my peers were very thin. I was not. I was average with a little bit of baby fat. The contrast between my peers and me stood out. It also allowed for many comparisons and statements about how I looked versus how they looked. People are never shy …. Read More
You might already know that HAES stands for Health at Every Size. HAES is an approach that is weight neutral. Instead of focusing on weight loss, HAES encourages making food/movement choices that are healthy—-not just to lose weight. HAES was hard for me to understand when I first started my ED recovery. I had a …. Read More